Salam and good morning..
This morning, rasa malas aku nak bangun..rasa malas nak pegi kerja..apa nya sik, its heavily raining outside..feel like winter season tho..Last nite, i kept thinking about him..Kenak nya tegar molah aku gtok?? Why?? Apa salah aku?? Maybe, im kinda harsh towards him, aku mungkin selalu sumpah seranah nya, but aku polah gtok time aku marah and bila nya polah salah dgn aku...aku sik tak tauk nak padah apa gik..my heart is really really broken...i dont give a damn anything happen to him..i just want my money..its my right..fuck him..i wish him dead now..i suppose there is no use Allah gave him second chance to live..nothing is change.everything remain the same..
aone..i fucking hate u..i reallly really really do..and i want u to die...u just fucking mess up my life..i hate u..aku menyesal kenal kau wan.......kali tok aku benar benar maok ninggal kau..babi ko ya..i will never halalkan makan minum and segala hutang ko dengan aku..hati aku benar benar sakit..ko patut mati jak riya..ko sial..ko pembawa malang dlm idup aku..mudahan ko mati!!
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
New Job
Lupak maok story..on the 19th Jan..i started my new job at Ranhill as a project document control. at first, memang nabes gila aku..(sapa sik nebes first time masok nak?) Im late that morning, coz working hour di cya start at 7am..aku lambat 6min..Masa first masok cya, i went to see HR exec..and he gave some simple briefing about the company profiles..so far ku liat company ya ok..memang standard gilak2..not like my previous employer..office nya pun boleh tahan..working environmentnya is totally different!! very quiet..and very very professional..
i was attached at level 2..which is IR department..so far the staff are very welcoming..coz ada juwak yang ku kenal before tok..hopefully i can cope with everyone in the office, i dont want to be the previous zue..the emosi zue..a very very moody,not professional worker..
Since the day i started my new job, I promise to myself..that I am gonna be a very hardworking,pro active worker and the most important i want to change is..i need to control my anger and emotion during my task...i want to be professional! i want to prove the her that..i am very smart and more professional than her!! i am not like her, do dirty tactics to have extra money,extra treat! well, its her right to be it that way...i hope, someday, she will change..
enough about her..hehe..
before i left my previous employer, they did some farewell dinner for me..farewell rah dragon restoren..we ate seafood..the food is not that nice..sik macam previous lok...nang nyaman! they also gave me sourvenir, which is a bum watch with a lovely memorable tag "mcot rejuv"..i will not forget they all, eventho, some of them really affect my life..i forgave them all.. hmm nothing to say much..bye from now..
i was attached at level 2..which is IR department..so far the staff are very welcoming..coz ada juwak yang ku kenal before tok..hopefully i can cope with everyone in the office, i dont want to be the previous zue..the emosi zue..a very very moody,not professional worker..
Since the day i started my new job, I promise to myself..that I am gonna be a very hardworking,pro active worker and the most important i want to change is..i need to control my anger and emotion during my task...i want to be professional! i want to prove the her that..i am very smart and more professional than her!! i am not like her, do dirty tactics to have extra money,extra treat! well, its her right to be it that way...i hope, someday, she will change..
enough about her..hehe..
before i left my previous employer, they did some farewell dinner for me..farewell rah dragon restoren..we ate seafood..the food is not that nice..sik macam previous lok...nang nyaman! they also gave me sourvenir, which is a bum watch with a lovely memorable tag "mcot rejuv"..i will not forget they all, eventho, some of them really affect my life..i forgave them all.. hmm nothing to say much..bye from now..
Gong Xi Fa Cai
Salam and good morning to all..I would like to wish Gong Xi Fa Cai to those yang celebrate this festive..Bunga api pada thn tok so so meriah..nang happening gila..kalah nyambut new year dowh..nang best liat bunga api..Yang pelik nya, sharp at 12 am..sik hujan..but after sidak chinese main bunga api..alu hujan turun dengan lebat nya..Allah is very considerate to His ciptaan..Allahuakbar!!
Today, i done something stupid as usual..damn it..kenak aku semakin hari semakin hanyut..yang sebenarnya,aku rasa amat bosan sampe aku maok benda bodo2..aku sik tahu giney nak release kebosanan dan ketensenan aku tok..so i decide polah ajaklah..as long as aku happy..tapi yalah...paham paham jaklah..hee
Bila la aku nak bertobat benar benar tok eh..aku rasa kosong..aku rasa sunyik gilak..yalah, semakin hari aku semakin jauh dgn Allah..aku realize aku tok semakin melencong, tapi..no action from me..kenak aku gtok eh..aku rasa nak entak palak ku pun rah ke dinding!!
aku pun sik paham dengan ku pun tok..ada time,memang siyes gila..ada time, memang maok molah keja bodo bodo..hish..aku pun sik paham
Today, i done something stupid as usual..damn it..kenak aku semakin hari semakin hanyut..yang sebenarnya,aku rasa amat bosan sampe aku maok benda bodo2..aku sik tahu giney nak release kebosanan dan ketensenan aku tok..so i decide polah ajaklah..as long as aku happy..tapi yalah...paham paham jaklah..hee
Bila la aku nak bertobat benar benar tok eh..aku rasa kosong..aku rasa sunyik gilak..yalah, semakin hari aku semakin jauh dgn Allah..aku realize aku tok semakin melencong, tapi..no action from me..kenak aku gtok eh..aku rasa nak entak palak ku pun rah ke dinding!!
aku pun sik paham dengan ku pun tok..ada time,memang siyes gila..ada time, memang maok molah keja bodo bodo..hish..aku pun sik paham
Monday, December 29, 2008
delayed 24th
Salam..Happy Awal Muharram to all muslim out there..today is our new year for the Muslims..
I feel so damn bored, lonely, depressed today...I done nothing, just watching tv, playing games with my laptop, eat a lot, sleep a lot..since today is public holiday..gosh my life is sooo pathetic..so damn boring..
Why my life not like everybody else?? Why?? I feel so envy with everyone that have a better life than me..I hate mylife! I dont have many friends, i do have boyfriend but my boyfriend sucks, I do have family but my family is full of drama..gosh..its soo tiring...
On the 24th dec, i went to a party..xbash christmas party..ticket was so damn expensive..RM50!!
but anyhow, i still want to attend the party dowh..huhu..the party was held at esplanade..
I went to there all by myself..by the time i arrived there, people were staring at me coz yalah I alone..maybe they thought me such a loser that brave enough to attend the party huh??
Well, i just dont fucking cares what they think about me??? I just need to have fun even i am alone..i just dont really cares..at there, i joined my cuzzen Johan and with his friends..his friends not really frenly to me anyway..u know lar, im not the so that filthy rich and glamorous just like my cuzzen...once again, i just dont fucking cares. as long as i have my own money, i dont kacau their life, as long as they dont kacau my life, i really really dont care!
The party was sucks..bunyi macam hebat gila..but tell u the truth...100% sucks!!
Thank God, the DJ are really really good spinning the music, but the crowd...sedih ku nak ceta..harum bulak...we can counted the peeps dowh..i was forced to have a drink that nite...2shot is enough for me to get high..haha..damn it, i broke my own promise not to drink again..damnn..
I went back to home around 1230 that nite,coz i promised to my parents i would come early..
I guess..thats from me now..Take care and have a good day!
I feel so damn bored, lonely, depressed today...I done nothing, just watching tv, playing games with my laptop, eat a lot, sleep a lot..since today is public holiday..gosh my life is sooo pathetic..so damn boring..
Why my life not like everybody else?? Why?? I feel so envy with everyone that have a better life than me..I hate mylife! I dont have many friends, i do have boyfriend but my boyfriend sucks, I do have family but my family is full of drama..gosh..its soo tiring...
On the 24th dec, i went to a party..xbash christmas party..ticket was so damn expensive..RM50!!
but anyhow, i still want to attend the party dowh..huhu..the party was held at esplanade..
I went to there all by myself..by the time i arrived there, people were staring at me coz yalah I alone..maybe they thought me such a loser that brave enough to attend the party huh??
Well, i just dont fucking cares what they think about me??? I just need to have fun even i am alone..i just dont really cares..at there, i joined my cuzzen Johan and with his friends..his friends not really frenly to me anyway..u know lar, im not the so that filthy rich and glamorous just like my cuzzen...once again, i just dont fucking cares. as long as i have my own money, i dont kacau their life, as long as they dont kacau my life, i really really dont care!
The party was sucks..bunyi macam hebat gila..but tell u the truth...100% sucks!!
Thank God, the DJ are really really good spinning the music, but the crowd...sedih ku nak ceta..harum bulak...we can counted the peeps dowh..i was forced to have a drink that nite...2shot is enough for me to get high..haha..damn it, i broke my own promise not to drink again..damnn..
I went back to home around 1230 that nite,coz i promised to my parents i would come early..
I guess..thats from me now..Take care and have a good day!
Monday, December 22, 2008
blues monday
Salam..
Today is Monday..and like usual, hari Isnin amat dikenali as a very very boring day..hehe
Well, nuthin much is going to me..but there were sumtin that aku rasa sik selesa berlaku ari tok..
My boss doesnt masok kat site office, but instead he went to my office...and wif her..huhu
i guess he doesnt want to miss the chance to be with her..since i was attached to site office today to replace our project secretary..i feel very disappointed,geram and rasa pelik..
tapi sik apa lah..ya hak nya..
hmm..i guess it is lumrah alam..yalah bertemu macam macam jenis manusia..
i just wondering...kenak manusia sik pande puas..and sik pande bersyukur dengan apa nya ada..
sometimes, aku pun kedak ya juwak...mungkin Allah maok nguji takat ney keimanan kita..hmm...ntahlah...
Aritok ari yang amat membosankan bagi aku...sikda gilak polah kerja...just layan main game hell's kitchen..yalah dah semua orang cuti..if only tek ada duit, memang aku jadi ular sawa kali..hehe..hmm..arap arap..tomorrow will be better than today...hope aku eppy jak esok lusak dan selama nya ahahaa..chow
Today is Monday..and like usual, hari Isnin amat dikenali as a very very boring day..hehe
Well, nuthin much is going to me..but there were sumtin that aku rasa sik selesa berlaku ari tok..
My boss doesnt masok kat site office, but instead he went to my office...and wif her..huhu
i guess he doesnt want to miss the chance to be with her..since i was attached to site office today to replace our project secretary..i feel very disappointed,geram and rasa pelik..
tapi sik apa lah..ya hak nya..
hmm..i guess it is lumrah alam..yalah bertemu macam macam jenis manusia..
i just wondering...kenak manusia sik pande puas..and sik pande bersyukur dengan apa nya ada..
sometimes, aku pun kedak ya juwak...mungkin Allah maok nguji takat ney keimanan kita..hmm...ntahlah...
Aritok ari yang amat membosankan bagi aku...sikda gilak polah kerja...just layan main game hell's kitchen..yalah dah semua orang cuti..if only tek ada duit, memang aku jadi ular sawa kali..hehe..hmm..arap arap..tomorrow will be better than today...hope aku eppy jak esok lusak dan selama nya ahahaa..chow
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
just an ordinary wed
Today is Wednesday...nothing much is going on..im so damn bored..
byk benda aku nak pikir..this morning, my parents went to majlis islam to have counselling session with ustaz..my mum asked me whether should bapak aku patut di berik peluang utk kali terakhir. aku padah aok..
yang sebenarnya aku amat kesian ngan bapak aku, tapi nya sik pande menghargai bila orang kesian dengannya. bila orang kesian, nya ambik kesempatan. I hope everything will be just fine after my mum berik bapak sigek peluang and after sidak kenak counselling..
As day goes by, mood aku ilang entah ke cne..aku sikda semangat langsung nak keja..nak di padah sikda kerja..kerja nang ada..just that mood ku sikda kat tmpt kerja tok lagik...i guess aku dah sik sabar nak gie tempat kerja baru kot..huhu
ari tok aku nak balit awal eh, bagus ku di rumah tido jak madi aku duduk sikda polah papa...
Thats all from me now..chiaooo
byk benda aku nak pikir..this morning, my parents went to majlis islam to have counselling session with ustaz..my mum asked me whether should bapak aku patut di berik peluang utk kali terakhir. aku padah aok..
yang sebenarnya aku amat kesian ngan bapak aku, tapi nya sik pande menghargai bila orang kesian dengannya. bila orang kesian, nya ambik kesempatan. I hope everything will be just fine after my mum berik bapak sigek peluang and after sidak kenak counselling..
As day goes by, mood aku ilang entah ke cne..aku sikda semangat langsung nak keja..nak di padah sikda kerja..kerja nang ada..just that mood ku sikda kat tmpt kerja tok lagik...i guess aku dah sik sabar nak gie tempat kerja baru kot..huhu
ari tok aku nak balit awal eh, bagus ku di rumah tido jak madi aku duduk sikda polah papa...
Thats all from me now..chiaooo
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Promise
Salam and good day all..
Today is Monday..and guesss whattt...MONDAY SUCKS dowh..huhu..
last friday i did send my resignation letter to my boss and the HR....Ramey sidak kecewa dengar i will be leaving soon..yerseh rasa best jak aku ahahah..to be frankly, i dont want to leave them actually but since there're scandals in my office.. i get sick and annoying with them..
i know its their right whether they want to have an affair..but i just cant stand it..aku sik pat idup dengan org yang udah kawen but still want to have an affair..its killing me la...
Enough bout the affair story, yesterday my dad polah polah sakit..apa tek ari tok nya suppose gie majlis islam..tapi kuatan nya pentar gilak..alu nya berlakon polah polah sakit..gosh...menyampah alu jak aku..im not try to be anak yang derhaka..but..if u're in my shoes..u will know what i feel..u will feel, betapa sakit nya hati aku..betapa hancur nya hati seorang anak...
mun ada mak, alu nya polah saon, nak madah dirik nya sakit lah tek..duh..sekali tek aku berbunyi, tunggah ambulans..alu bait nya..aku bencik nar org berpura pura kedak tok..geram ati aku eh...
Petang marek, me and my gang went to Esplanade as usual. I meet my high class kazen there..he was with his so glamourous and filthy rich gang...yedeh..tang best jak rupa cdak..seriously la..i wish i could be just like him...enjoy jak keja...party,duit byk..u tell me..who doesnt want life like this huh?? but apa guna semua nya if u doesnt have LOVE..yes, u can buy love with money...but do they lasting?? i guess not...
Since i found out, my so called abang sedara yang gambong, main main...angkuh dengan family aku..aku just sik pat terimak..nya polah gia..as if my family tok sikda maruah.. jadi i promise to myself....From now, i will make changes for my family...nya jangan ingat..dunia tok nya punya..Memang sidak ya kaya, tapi..kedekut taik masin..angkuh dengan kekayaan sidak..sikpa..someday Allah will show them a lesson..
Mulai ari tok, aku akan berjanji dengan dirik ku pun, I will try to improve kehidupan aku and my family....I promise
Today is Monday..and guesss whattt...MONDAY SUCKS dowh..huhu..
last friday i did send my resignation letter to my boss and the HR....Ramey sidak kecewa dengar i will be leaving soon..yerseh rasa best jak aku ahahah..to be frankly, i dont want to leave them actually but since there're scandals in my office.. i get sick and annoying with them..
i know its their right whether they want to have an affair..but i just cant stand it..aku sik pat idup dengan org yang udah kawen but still want to have an affair..its killing me la...
Enough bout the affair story, yesterday my dad polah polah sakit..apa tek ari tok nya suppose gie majlis islam..tapi kuatan nya pentar gilak..alu nya berlakon polah polah sakit..gosh...menyampah alu jak aku..im not try to be anak yang derhaka..but..if u're in my shoes..u will know what i feel..u will feel, betapa sakit nya hati aku..betapa hancur nya hati seorang anak...
mun ada mak, alu nya polah saon, nak madah dirik nya sakit lah tek..duh..sekali tek aku berbunyi, tunggah ambulans..alu bait nya..aku bencik nar org berpura pura kedak tok..geram ati aku eh...
Petang marek, me and my gang went to Esplanade as usual. I meet my high class kazen there..he was with his so glamourous and filthy rich gang...yedeh..tang best jak rupa cdak..seriously la..i wish i could be just like him...enjoy jak keja...party,duit byk..u tell me..who doesnt want life like this huh?? but apa guna semua nya if u doesnt have LOVE..yes, u can buy love with money...but do they lasting?? i guess not...
Since i found out, my so called abang sedara yang gambong, main main...angkuh dengan family aku..aku just sik pat terimak..nya polah gia..as if my family tok sikda maruah.. jadi i promise to myself....From now, i will make changes for my family...nya jangan ingat..dunia tok nya punya..Memang sidak ya kaya, tapi..kedekut taik masin..angkuh dengan kekayaan sidak..sikpa..someday Allah will show them a lesson..
Mulai ari tok, aku akan berjanji dengan dirik ku pun, I will try to improve kehidupan aku and my family....I promise
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