Salam..Happy Awal Muharram to all muslim out there..today is our new year for the Muslims..
I feel so damn bored, lonely, depressed today...I done nothing, just watching tv, playing games with my laptop, eat a lot, sleep a lot..since today is public holiday..gosh my life is sooo pathetic..so damn boring..
Why my life not like everybody else?? Why?? I feel so envy with everyone that have a better life than me..I hate mylife! I dont have many friends, i do have boyfriend but my boyfriend sucks, I do have family but my family is full of drama..gosh..its soo tiring...
On the 24th dec, i went to a party..xbash christmas party..ticket was so damn expensive..RM50!!
but anyhow, i still want to attend the party dowh..huhu..the party was held at esplanade..
I went to there all by myself..by the time i arrived there, people were staring at me coz yalah I alone..maybe they thought me such a loser that brave enough to attend the party huh??
Well, i just dont fucking cares what they think about me??? I just need to have fun even i am alone..i just dont really cares..at there, i joined my cuzzen Johan and with his friends..his friends not really frenly to me anyway..u know lar, im not the so that filthy rich and glamorous just like my cuzzen...once again, i just dont fucking cares. as long as i have my own money, i dont kacau their life, as long as they dont kacau my life, i really really dont care!
The party was sucks..bunyi macam hebat gila..but tell u the truth...100% sucks!!
Thank God, the DJ are really really good spinning the music, but the crowd...sedih ku nak ceta..harum bulak...we can counted the peeps dowh..i was forced to have a drink that nite...2shot is enough for me to get high..haha..damn it, i broke my own promise not to drink again..damnn..
I went back to home around 1230 that nite,coz i promised to my parents i would come early..
I guess..thats from me now..Take care and have a good day!
Monday, December 29, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
blues monday
Salam..
Today is Monday..and like usual, hari Isnin amat dikenali as a very very boring day..hehe
Well, nuthin much is going to me..but there were sumtin that aku rasa sik selesa berlaku ari tok..
My boss doesnt masok kat site office, but instead he went to my office...and wif her..huhu
i guess he doesnt want to miss the chance to be with her..since i was attached to site office today to replace our project secretary..i feel very disappointed,geram and rasa pelik..
tapi sik apa lah..ya hak nya..
hmm..i guess it is lumrah alam..yalah bertemu macam macam jenis manusia..
i just wondering...kenak manusia sik pande puas..and sik pande bersyukur dengan apa nya ada..
sometimes, aku pun kedak ya juwak...mungkin Allah maok nguji takat ney keimanan kita..hmm...ntahlah...
Aritok ari yang amat membosankan bagi aku...sikda gilak polah kerja...just layan main game hell's kitchen..yalah dah semua orang cuti..if only tek ada duit, memang aku jadi ular sawa kali..hehe..hmm..arap arap..tomorrow will be better than today...hope aku eppy jak esok lusak dan selama nya ahahaa..chow
Today is Monday..and like usual, hari Isnin amat dikenali as a very very boring day..hehe
Well, nuthin much is going to me..but there were sumtin that aku rasa sik selesa berlaku ari tok..
My boss doesnt masok kat site office, but instead he went to my office...and wif her..huhu
i guess he doesnt want to miss the chance to be with her..since i was attached to site office today to replace our project secretary..i feel very disappointed,geram and rasa pelik..
tapi sik apa lah..ya hak nya..
hmm..i guess it is lumrah alam..yalah bertemu macam macam jenis manusia..
i just wondering...kenak manusia sik pande puas..and sik pande bersyukur dengan apa nya ada..
sometimes, aku pun kedak ya juwak...mungkin Allah maok nguji takat ney keimanan kita..hmm...ntahlah...
Aritok ari yang amat membosankan bagi aku...sikda gilak polah kerja...just layan main game hell's kitchen..yalah dah semua orang cuti..if only tek ada duit, memang aku jadi ular sawa kali..hehe..hmm..arap arap..tomorrow will be better than today...hope aku eppy jak esok lusak dan selama nya ahahaa..chow
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
just an ordinary wed
Today is Wednesday...nothing much is going on..im so damn bored..
byk benda aku nak pikir..this morning, my parents went to majlis islam to have counselling session with ustaz..my mum asked me whether should bapak aku patut di berik peluang utk kali terakhir. aku padah aok..
yang sebenarnya aku amat kesian ngan bapak aku, tapi nya sik pande menghargai bila orang kesian dengannya. bila orang kesian, nya ambik kesempatan. I hope everything will be just fine after my mum berik bapak sigek peluang and after sidak kenak counselling..
As day goes by, mood aku ilang entah ke cne..aku sikda semangat langsung nak keja..nak di padah sikda kerja..kerja nang ada..just that mood ku sikda kat tmpt kerja tok lagik...i guess aku dah sik sabar nak gie tempat kerja baru kot..huhu
ari tok aku nak balit awal eh, bagus ku di rumah tido jak madi aku duduk sikda polah papa...
Thats all from me now..chiaooo
byk benda aku nak pikir..this morning, my parents went to majlis islam to have counselling session with ustaz..my mum asked me whether should bapak aku patut di berik peluang utk kali terakhir. aku padah aok..
yang sebenarnya aku amat kesian ngan bapak aku, tapi nya sik pande menghargai bila orang kesian dengannya. bila orang kesian, nya ambik kesempatan. I hope everything will be just fine after my mum berik bapak sigek peluang and after sidak kenak counselling..
As day goes by, mood aku ilang entah ke cne..aku sikda semangat langsung nak keja..nak di padah sikda kerja..kerja nang ada..just that mood ku sikda kat tmpt kerja tok lagik...i guess aku dah sik sabar nak gie tempat kerja baru kot..huhu
ari tok aku nak balit awal eh, bagus ku di rumah tido jak madi aku duduk sikda polah papa...
Thats all from me now..chiaooo
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Promise
Salam and good day all..
Today is Monday..and guesss whattt...MONDAY SUCKS dowh..huhu..
last friday i did send my resignation letter to my boss and the HR....Ramey sidak kecewa dengar i will be leaving soon..yerseh rasa best jak aku ahahah..to be frankly, i dont want to leave them actually but since there're scandals in my office.. i get sick and annoying with them..
i know its their right whether they want to have an affair..but i just cant stand it..aku sik pat idup dengan org yang udah kawen but still want to have an affair..its killing me la...
Enough bout the affair story, yesterday my dad polah polah sakit..apa tek ari tok nya suppose gie majlis islam..tapi kuatan nya pentar gilak..alu nya berlakon polah polah sakit..gosh...menyampah alu jak aku..im not try to be anak yang derhaka..but..if u're in my shoes..u will know what i feel..u will feel, betapa sakit nya hati aku..betapa hancur nya hati seorang anak...
mun ada mak, alu nya polah saon, nak madah dirik nya sakit lah tek..duh..sekali tek aku berbunyi, tunggah ambulans..alu bait nya..aku bencik nar org berpura pura kedak tok..geram ati aku eh...
Petang marek, me and my gang went to Esplanade as usual. I meet my high class kazen there..he was with his so glamourous and filthy rich gang...yedeh..tang best jak rupa cdak..seriously la..i wish i could be just like him...enjoy jak keja...party,duit byk..u tell me..who doesnt want life like this huh?? but apa guna semua nya if u doesnt have LOVE..yes, u can buy love with money...but do they lasting?? i guess not...
Since i found out, my so called abang sedara yang gambong, main main...angkuh dengan family aku..aku just sik pat terimak..nya polah gia..as if my family tok sikda maruah.. jadi i promise to myself....From now, i will make changes for my family...nya jangan ingat..dunia tok nya punya..Memang sidak ya kaya, tapi..kedekut taik masin..angkuh dengan kekayaan sidak..sikpa..someday Allah will show them a lesson..
Mulai ari tok, aku akan berjanji dengan dirik ku pun, I will try to improve kehidupan aku and my family....I promise
Today is Monday..and guesss whattt...MONDAY SUCKS dowh..huhu..
last friday i did send my resignation letter to my boss and the HR....Ramey sidak kecewa dengar i will be leaving soon..yerseh rasa best jak aku ahahah..to be frankly, i dont want to leave them actually but since there're scandals in my office.. i get sick and annoying with them..
i know its their right whether they want to have an affair..but i just cant stand it..aku sik pat idup dengan org yang udah kawen but still want to have an affair..its killing me la...
Enough bout the affair story, yesterday my dad polah polah sakit..apa tek ari tok nya suppose gie majlis islam..tapi kuatan nya pentar gilak..alu nya berlakon polah polah sakit..gosh...menyampah alu jak aku..im not try to be anak yang derhaka..but..if u're in my shoes..u will know what i feel..u will feel, betapa sakit nya hati aku..betapa hancur nya hati seorang anak...
mun ada mak, alu nya polah saon, nak madah dirik nya sakit lah tek..duh..sekali tek aku berbunyi, tunggah ambulans..alu bait nya..aku bencik nar org berpura pura kedak tok..geram ati aku eh...
Petang marek, me and my gang went to Esplanade as usual. I meet my high class kazen there..he was with his so glamourous and filthy rich gang...yedeh..tang best jak rupa cdak..seriously la..i wish i could be just like him...enjoy jak keja...party,duit byk..u tell me..who doesnt want life like this huh?? but apa guna semua nya if u doesnt have LOVE..yes, u can buy love with money...but do they lasting?? i guess not...
Since i found out, my so called abang sedara yang gambong, main main...angkuh dengan family aku..aku just sik pat terimak..nya polah gia..as if my family tok sikda maruah.. jadi i promise to myself....From now, i will make changes for my family...nya jangan ingat..dunia tok nya punya..Memang sidak ya kaya, tapi..kedekut taik masin..angkuh dengan kekayaan sidak..sikpa..someday Allah will show them a lesson..
Mulai ari tok, aku akan berjanji dengan dirik ku pun, I will try to improve kehidupan aku and my family....I promise
Monday, December 8, 2008
sick
Im kinda late for work this morning..memang sengaja pun..sikda mood langsung aku nak keja kat ctok..kak ya i did my job as usual,transmit the document and bla bla bla..so bored!!
Around 10 sumthin, my mum called me..Bersadu dgn aku hal bapak..ya rabbie, my dad lied to us again..kenak nya sik pande nak ubah ubah agik..im so sick and tired of these drama..sik pande abis abis..aku rasa mun di polah filem, berapa igik ndak ka season owh..ahaha
Ya Allah, aku mohon kepadaMu agar engkau bukakanlah hati ayahku..hanya Engkau saja yang mampu membuka pintu hati nya. Aku and the rest dah sik mampu nak ngajar bapak aku ya..
Aku pun eran apa nak ka di dalam otak bapak aku ya..lewat juwak utang nya sik pande abis abis dari muda sampe ke tua tok..eran eran..nama jak gaji besar..tapii ya rabbie, semua duit ya pakey bayar utang. aku benar benar kesian dengan mak aku..kehidupan mak aku sik macam orang lain. Mun org tua lain ka, memang dah pegi haji dengan gaji laki nya yang besar. Tapi mak aku sik, sian alu aku nangga nasib mak aku. Dah la laki nya rangat, sik macam org lain. Nak mbak gie makan pun, aku rasa 2 kali setahun kali..
Mak, aku benar benar kesian ngan mak ktk..maafkan kamek sik pat jadi anak yang nyenangkan ktk. aku tok nama jak bekerja, tapi yalah aku sik pat nyenang kan mak aku..aku cuma dpt berik nya dikit2 jak..coz aku pun ada commitment kedirik yang bukan berpunca dengan aku..
ntah lah bila gik nasib aku tok berubah..mudahan mudahan aku tabah menghadapi semua tok..ya allah, tabahkan la hati aku dlm mengharungi semua tok,aku dah sik sanggup ya allah..
Around 10 sumthin, my mum called me..Bersadu dgn aku hal bapak..ya rabbie, my dad lied to us again..kenak nya sik pande nak ubah ubah agik..im so sick and tired of these drama..sik pande abis abis..aku rasa mun di polah filem, berapa igik ndak ka season owh..ahaha
Ya Allah, aku mohon kepadaMu agar engkau bukakanlah hati ayahku..hanya Engkau saja yang mampu membuka pintu hati nya. Aku and the rest dah sik mampu nak ngajar bapak aku ya..
Aku pun eran apa nak ka di dalam otak bapak aku ya..lewat juwak utang nya sik pande abis abis dari muda sampe ke tua tok..eran eran..nama jak gaji besar..tapii ya rabbie, semua duit ya pakey bayar utang. aku benar benar kesian dengan mak aku..kehidupan mak aku sik macam orang lain. Mun org tua lain ka, memang dah pegi haji dengan gaji laki nya yang besar. Tapi mak aku sik, sian alu aku nangga nasib mak aku. Dah la laki nya rangat, sik macam org lain. Nak mbak gie makan pun, aku rasa 2 kali setahun kali..
Mak, aku benar benar kesian ngan mak ktk..maafkan kamek sik pat jadi anak yang nyenangkan ktk. aku tok nama jak bekerja, tapi yalah aku sik pat nyenang kan mak aku..aku cuma dpt berik nya dikit2 jak..coz aku pun ada commitment kedirik yang bukan berpunca dengan aku..
ntah lah bila gik nasib aku tok berubah..mudahan mudahan aku tabah menghadapi semua tok..ya allah, tabahkan la hati aku dlm mengharungi semua tok,aku dah sik sanggup ya allah..
Salam Aidiladha
Assalamualaikum and good day all..
Its never too late to wish you "Selamat Aidiladha" to all muslim out there..
Semoga aidiladha kali ini akan membawa seribu rahmat kepada kita semua..
But as for me, its nuthin..yalah me celebrating it with my pathetic family..
Its my "double trouble" who ruin it..sorang "saiko", sorang lagi "si traitor"..
I keep asking myself, sampe bila kah aku nak celebrate dgn sidak duak yang gila tok..
Aku benar benar kesian dengan mak aku, sik macam org lain.
Ya juwak bapak molah ari tok, macam bkn hari raya..Only Allah knows everything..
But today juwak aku tumpang happy with my fren..my best buddy "bertekol" ari tok..
rindok ati liat sidak bertekol..bila agak nya turn aku owh..akupun sik tauk..
Jodoh di tangan tuhan nak..hopefully my time will come someday..
Kat rumah member ku tek, mek org discuss tok to travel together someday..maybe kat KK kot..
By this end of the year, hopefully jadi la..akupun lamak dah sik berkawol..huhu
Ari tok sik byk gilak benda terjadi..so i guess thats it from now..chow!
Its never too late to wish you "Selamat Aidiladha" to all muslim out there..
Semoga aidiladha kali ini akan membawa seribu rahmat kepada kita semua..
But as for me, its nuthin..yalah me celebrating it with my pathetic family..
Its my "double trouble" who ruin it..sorang "saiko", sorang lagi "si traitor"..
I keep asking myself, sampe bila kah aku nak celebrate dgn sidak duak yang gila tok..
Aku benar benar kesian dengan mak aku, sik macam org lain.
Ya juwak bapak molah ari tok, macam bkn hari raya..Only Allah knows everything..
But today juwak aku tumpang happy with my fren..my best buddy "bertekol" ari tok..
rindok ati liat sidak bertekol..bila agak nya turn aku owh..akupun sik tauk..
Jodoh di tangan tuhan nak..hopefully my time will come someday..
Kat rumah member ku tek, mek org discuss tok to travel together someday..maybe kat KK kot..
By this end of the year, hopefully jadi la..akupun lamak dah sik berkawol..huhu
Ari tok sik byk gilak benda terjadi..so i guess thats it from now..chow!
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Haluu everybody..welcome to my full of hatred world..he he he..
Well, im newbie in this blogger world..so hope u're enjoy reading my blog aite..
basically, I will write anything in my blog..
So..peace put aite..
Well, im newbie in this blogger world..so hope u're enjoy reading my blog aite..
basically, I will write anything in my blog..
So..peace put aite..
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