delayed 24th

Salam..Happy Awal Muharram to all muslim out there..today is our new year for the Muslims..
I feel so damn bored, lonely, depressed today...I done nothing, just watching tv, playing games with my laptop, eat a lot, sleep a lot..since today is public holiday..gosh my life is sooo pathetic..so damn boring..
Why my life not like everybody else?? Why?? I feel so envy with everyone that have a better life than me..I hate mylife! I dont have many friends, i do have boyfriend but my boyfriend sucks, I do have family but my family is full of drama..gosh..its soo tiring...
On the 24th dec, i went to a party..xbash christmas party..ticket was so damn expensive..RM50!!
but anyhow, i still want to attend the party dowh..huhu..the party was held at esplanade..
I went to there all by myself..by the time i arrived there, people were staring at me coz yalah I alone..maybe they thought me such a loser that brave enough to attend the party huh??
Well, i just dont fucking cares what they think about me??? I just need to have fun even i am alone..i just dont really cares..at there, i joined my cuzzen Johan and with his friends..his friends not really frenly to me anyway..u know lar, im not the so that filthy rich and glamorous just like my cuzzen...once again, i just dont fucking cares. as long as i have my own money, i dont kacau their life, as long as they dont kacau my life, i really really dont care!
The party was sucks..bunyi macam hebat gila..but tell u the truth...100% sucks!!
Thank God, the DJ are really really good spinning the music, but the crowd...sedih ku nak ceta..harum bulak...we can counted the peeps dowh..i was forced to have a drink that nite...2shot is enough for me to get high..haha..damn it, i broke my own promise not to drink again..damnn..
I went back to home around 1230 that nite,coz i promised to my parents i would come early..
I guess..thats from me now..Take care and have a good day!